No humor this AM

OK, it has been a while.....This is what is up.............I have lost 30# (yea)  I still feel fat and want to lose more, but whatever at this point.

I finally got the courage to see a therapist for my kids, well, yea and crap, is what I should say.  From what the therapist told me, without meeting Liam is that he has some serious issues, just from speaking to me.  First of all he is scared of his father, he has anxiety issues and depression and from some other things I told her she thinks he might have a form of Autism.......

She told me to not jump to conclusions, but how can you not.  She is going to meet with him next Tuesday and then we will go from there.  She will meet with him 4 times in the next 4 weeks then sit down with me and speak to me about what she finds and her recommendations......

I just feel like saying fuck all this shit and running away.  And honestly that seems like a good thing at this point.

OK symptoms:

litlle to no eye contact
sensitive to light
clumsy, took a long time to catch and throw a ball,
very good verbally, not so good with written language
add
dyslexia
better with adults than with children
does not mind being alone, actually prefers it
can focus for long periods of time on things he really likes,
does very well in extermly structured environments but left to his own will not focus
fear of doing anything wrong
will rip up homework if one thing is wrong on the page.
Crap, help me find the humor in my depressed and very anxious 9.5 yr old son, before I start drinking at 8am..........

humor...huh

I had a blast last night at an old fashioned ice cream social.  It was the best event, a great band that got the kids participating....it was great!  The funny part was watching me dance!  seriously!

Anyway the other funny thing that happened this week was me forgetting I had Tuesday off, I walked into work and they sent me home!  Such is my life....OH, the cat we thought was a girl when we picked her out is a boy, well, now she/he is an it, so it doesn't matter!


Live life to the fullest and be the best person you can be.  That is my motto, oh, and laugh a little already!


P.S.  why do people always think I am so damned serious all the time.  I make a comment and it gets blown to hell and back.  Should I just keep my mouth shut, or tell people how I feel??????


Well...........to pontificate or not to pontificate?????

MY HUSBAND

OK, some of you out there think he is an ass, that is OK with me.  Do you want to know why, because it is all an act.  If you really knew him, if you even bothered to look past the fact that he is a blue collar worker, or his shaved head, goatee, tattoos and gruff exterior, you would see his gentle soul.  I know you can laugh, but he really is a sensitive and gentle soul. 

Sometimes I even forget this and let myself get sucked into old patterns of my Mother and Father.  Now that is where my marriage issues stem from.  That is right, my marriage issues stem from my mother and fathers relationship and have nothing to do with mine.  And once I realized this ( in the last few weeks) everything about our relationship shifted.  Now don't get me wrong, is is still a stupid idiot at times, but aren't we all! 

OK Joe is an idiot and I love him, he scares people off and I love that, because it has kept a bunch of crazy people out of my life!

Happy birthday baby!  I love you!